I wasn't supposed to be a teacher. I knew from a young age that I had
been gifted with the ability to write (a gift I do not take lightly), and I
also knew that I was a damn fine horse trainer, patient as the day is long and
able to get along better with most horses than I did with people. So my career
goal in high school centered around those two endeavors. I thought if I could
find the right partner in life, I could settle in to a routine which included
working horses in the morning hours and writing in the afternoons. For a tiny
space of time, I reached that goal—but then was thrust clean out of the end
zone by life's capriciousness (if you'll forgive a football metaphor in a
writer/horsewoman post).
When I found myself single at thirty with four kids and no child support
from their daddy (the guy who said, "Let's have six!"), I knew I
needed to do something quick, so I went back to school to get my teaching
credential as teaching would afford me the most amount of time—winter break,
spring break, summer break—with my children. When I took off my stay-at-home
mom/writer hat and donned the mortarboard of academia, I'd already published
one book (at the age of twenty-three) and was smack dab in the middle of
writing a second. (That second book, which I abandoned during my divorce, would
have been a good one... but was never finished.)
In all fairness, I can't say I haven't been writing in the past thirty
years. I have. I've had three more books published, and I've seen my work in
national periodicals such as The Writer
and the Christian Science Monitor, in
addition to the Los Angeles Times. (Yay me!) But one of those books was written
in the short span of a ten-week summer break. Another, the YA novel, was
written in just thirty days during NaNoWriMo. So the writing has been on the
back burner while teaching has been my day job.
Yesterday, I carefully removed all the remaining bobby pins from my
mortarboard and wrapped it up in metaphorical plastic to be stored forever as a
memento of the job I came to love so much it stopped being a "job"
years ago.
And today I woke at 4:00 (old habits die hard), crawled out of bed
(carefully, as Purrl will sink her claws into my leg to keep me in bed like a
sleepy teen slamming the snooze button), pulled on a comfortable old pair of
cargo pants and a t-shirt, and set my writer's hat jovially, insouciantly,
enthusiastically and passionately upon my head. Hallelujah! It still fits!
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